Therapy art

I did a kind of therapy painting today. This is a little more artsy fartsy than what I normally do, and it's done quickly, but I've been struggling mentally, and thought this would help, and it did. I've been paranoid about suddenly having a heart attack or something. I find lately my anxiety has been high, but I haven't been changing my habits to become healthier. I JUST ate a big burger from ruby tuesdays and than worried about my heart. So this represents the path I need to be on. My head is above water, and it feels logical, it feels comforting and the light above me feels like the easier way to go, but the reality, is that not only am I fine, and my body is fine, but I need to dive into the seemingly scary waters of self discipline to find a world that's much better than my own. I could be in a cool, refreshing and easy going paradise (in real terms, a reality where I have a fit body, I'm happy and my art is improved) but instead I keep my head above water, because I don't want to drown. It's the illusion of my brain right now. Funny how our subconsious works. Ok, enough explanation I think. Enjoy the weird, artsy fartsy digital spot illustration. PS: I hate art like this :)